marycole

Breathe in,

Breathe out,

Breathe in,

Breathe out.

Breathe in,

LetItAllOutAndGetItOverWithBecauseIfYouDon'tDoItNowYouMightNeverHaveAnotherChanceAndYou'llRegretIt
ForThe RestOfYourLife.

Breathe out.

Now, isn't that better?

 I was just on facebook and came across some videos of the musical from my senior year of highschool.  We put on Thoroughly Modern Millie and we had probably the greatest time ever.
I miss the cast and crew so much!  Being all sentimental, I feel like writing.
Here it is:

The crowd dies down as the music begins,
and the curtains slowly part their ways.
The whirling twirling from within-  
It's finally time after all these days.
A cast of strangers now unites.
With hopes and trust and love.
They're blinded by the twinkling lights,
all sides, below, above.
Each face is caked with cream and powder,
Big Smiles, Big Frowns, Big Voice.
The actors know they must sing louder,
They know they have no choice.
It's opening night and time to start.
Each actor moves to play his part.


It's not fantastic, but it's something.  =)

 What is so difficult about apologizing?

After an incident with a new friend at school, I've been pretty upset the last few days.

I know that personally, if I do something wrong I apologize about it.  Even if it's embarrassing or painful, I know that the right thing to do is to say sorry.
Apparently, not everyone knows this.

I'm not an unreasonable person, and if someone apologizes to me I'm going to listen.  If he takes the time and gives me the courtesy of talking to me honestly and saying sorry for what he did, then of course I'm going to give him the respect he deserves for doing so.   But it seems that not everyone is aware of these small, common courtesies.  

Which brings another thought to my mind.
I've been told I'm intimidating, aggressive, and kind of scary, and that maybe that's why he acts like nothing happened.  

We're talking about an 18 year old man here, not an 11 year old boy.  
If this "intimidation" is the reason that I have yet to hear an apology, then I think that someone needs to put on his big-boy pants and come talk to me, because this is a little ridiculous.

But I don't think that that's the case- I don't think he's scared or intimidated.  I think he's just an idiot.
I think he just wants to move on, like nothing happened.
I don't think that he realized that I was actually hurt by what was said and accused, which is a little surprising since he saw me run from the room crying.  
Regardless, I think that he just doesn't understand that he should have said sorry.  Which is what I don't understand.
How does a person not know that?

I'm just getting sick of him smiling and acting like everything's cool. 
It's not okay with me.

And I honestly don't even care that much about it.  The only thing that bothers me is the lack of apology, and the ignorance.  The words that were said aren't that much of a big deal next to the way they were never apologized for.

Well anyway, boys are stupid.
End of story. 

This is probably the lamest excise for a LiveJournal ever.
I'm writing now because Emily pulled up my profile (aka a blank screen) and yelled at me.  I've never done the blogging scene before and I have absolutely no idea what to write here.

HOWEVER,
I did put up a picture.

Baby steps.

:D